I know there’s thing that need to be done for me to improve, for time to comfortable, for me to evolve and have my priorities straight. But they come in waves. One day I’ll remember one thing and a week later I’ll remember the next. And during the time in between my negligence creates more problems. Thus creating a never ending cycle

For example. I just compiled and pasted this from a note I made at 2:01 AM. As I type it is now 3:34 AM. I am becoming so easily distracted. My room is a mess, mommy hobbies are becoming messy. I dread starting college again in August and I just straight up not go to bed early because I forget.

I literally just forget to fall asleep because I don’t produce enough melatonin and I forget to use my melatonin spray and I also forget to shower, floss and brush my teeth on time. So I’m a daze at around 2-3 every morning I’ll go do all those things while everyone else in my house is sleeping. Then I’ll wake up at 1-2 in the afternoon like a bum.

I just keep wondering. Will getting enough sleep fix this? Will sleeping more allow me to KNOW what to do? Will I not just have more energy to waste? I feel very worthless