OK wow, I don't even know where to start. I was looking through the posts on this sub using keywords and a few of them were sort of similar, but none were particularly helpful… I am experiencing a sort of ADHD paralysis and if anyone has any advice that would be great.

I am currently in-between school ending, and (hopefully) having a summer job, but the job won't start until mid-late May. This means that I am currently losing my MIND from all the ~possibilities~ of how I could be productive, and ultimately getting nothing done. I DO have an agenda, and goals, and plans. I am constantly writing out goal plans and daily schedules, none of which EVER end up getting implemented, unfortunately. I am also hesitant to attempt anything because if I get into a routine, then get a job, my routine will have to change. (Side note: I do take Concerta and I find it does generally help me focus a little more when I have something I know I need to focus on... And a looming deadline.)

I am so overwhelmed that I don't even know what I should spend my time thinking about. Like, as I tried to fall asleep last night, I couldn't even decide what to think about. Friends, relationships, university, the future, etc... it kind of stressed me out? I even spent the last few days organizing my computer files, Google Drive, and Spotify playlists for some reason.

I'm sort of sick of thinking about the past and the future right now (something I usually often do) but I don't know what to do with myself right NOW. I don't know if that even makes sense. I know this post is totally a mess, but that's where I'm at right now. I want to get a therapist, but I am moving in the fall, so I don't know if it would be worth it? Maybe I should. I feel sort of stuck on making any decisions until I hear back about the summer job, and also until I move.

Any advice is seriously appreciated, if this post is even advisable lmao.