So. I’m struggling a little but at the same time nervous.

A little about me, i have been in this kink for about 10 years but up until last year denied myself and never told my abdl partner.

When I came out to her, she was loving and supportive and I couldn’t have asked for a better come out .

But since I have, I have gotten deeper and deeper into this kink and find that messing for me symbolises giving up all control.

I also like to serve and my partner has partaken in this and even played the dominant role however it isn’t natural to her and that is perfectly fine.

We have also discussed having a caregiver relationship male or female but what I tend to find it people wanting a wank and then never really have intention of committing.

To top it off, I love it and hate it, I set aside play time and chicken out, I adore and cringe at being regressed and babies all at the same time!!!

Oh and I am hard to get to a submissive little space, it isn’t something I can just turn on, I have to feel you are confident enough and understand the role before either of us can give up our control

Guess I’m confused any pointers and guidance