TL;DR:

I am opening up and really interested in meeting other ABDL's. Im from Illinois and I'm interested in play dates, abdl friends, and finding a female interested in being my caregiver. I'm not open to a male caregiver.

Everyone who wants to know more:

I just got off of a purge where I was ignoring my inner little. I'm happer now that I've been giving my little side attention. I'm both AB and DL. My AB side is not sexual at alll, it is something that very much helps me cope with my PTSD. My DL side is very much sexual.

Anyone interested in an intimate ABDL relationship:

When I'm in my DL mode, I get turned on by the idea of being controlled in my diaper. I also really like the idea of dominating someone else in their diaper when I'm in dl mode. For that reason, I think I'm a switch. In one of my DL fantasies, I want to be restriced and forced to use my diaper. I have yet to ever give someone full control of my body, and I'm in love with the idea. I'm a little about 2 days out of the week right now, and I'd love a partner who can handle being my caregiver while I'm small.

Anyone interested in just being a caregiver:

I'm not a 24/7 little at the moment, and I'm not sure If thats my thing. I think the right caregiver could definitely help me spend more time in little space. Even things like having to change my own diaper can pull me out of little space. An ex wanted to change me before, and I felt so safe and small. I loved it so much. I feel like my caregiver has to be female, because the idea of letting another man do a diaper check on me is scary. It may seriously be because of past male trauma, and it scares my little side. I'd like to meet an expierienced caregiver who can help me regress. Older age definitely doesn't matter there since my little side is really looking just to be taken care of.

Playmates:

I don't want anything creepy or sexual with playdates. Something about the idea of doing things with others in little space is very interesting to me. Open to playmates of all genders.

Friends:

I enjoy tech, all types of food, spending time outdoors, cars, programming, and creating music. I'm looking for safe friends who are a good influence. I'm ambitiously getting my life back together.