I'm bi (came out two months ago) so I marked it as M4A assuming it meant Male 4 All (I'm kinda bad with reddit slang sometimes) cause I'd date anyone if they have a great personality, I want to respect my partners as people first.

I'm in the Western New York area. (If you're around Buffalo [I don't live in Buffalo, I'll save my city for the DMs] we are probably within an hour or two of each other)

I believe my kink comes from the fact my parents split when I was 1 so I think I'm bi because I look for the love and care the two people that made the decision to have me never gave me any memories of while they were together. (I am also looking for a therapist to talk to about these things)

When I would do certain things they would always make me feel bad about loving the other one more. (intentional or not) So I didn't really date much in high school so I'm pretty new to this kinda stuff but I have to take this step to love myself first completely so I can love someone else. My mom knows I did babyish things in my teens but thought I was just being lazy because I really couldn't tell her I was getting off on it.

I love music, I write music, I play guitar and piano and sing semi decently but I only recently found my singing voice in the last month after meeting a cute boy [he's dating someone else so I'm over him but still a hottie] at my former work. (I am currently unemployed because the submissive nature of customer service fucked my brain up)

My 5 albums released don't contain my voice at all and I really feel like I need some time (honestly a month max, I'm confident in myself.) try to write the album I want. (I spent 4k on music gear a month ago and other impulse buying but i have toned it waaaay down now, so I don't burn through the last of my savings)

Honestly I'm not entirely sure what I want out of this but the dream I think would be two people willing to kinda give me a reset on my childhood for a bit and have me experience the love my parents never gave me. But I would absolutely settle for one person as well, I love love so much I love when love hurts.

I want to free myself completely because the trust issues I have with people changing my way of thinking kept me up for over 5 days a month ago and I needed to be put to sleep in a mental hospital. I'm saying all this upfront because I need whoever responds (if anyone at all) to realize there is many layers to this car crash of mental trauma.

I am nice but my tongue is sharp. I apologize if i hurt some of the people i talk to I just literally have never trusted anyone completely. (Until a girl I lost recently after my mental break) It's probably gonna take a bit for me to open up but(can you blame me?) I'm intense and also possibly one of the most competitive people of all time. (Also the biggest Buffalo Bills fan i try to be, Josh Allen is so fucking hot.)

I love video games, anime, movies, sports [mainly statistics wise] art. I love just extraordinary things about this planet.

I just need someone to take care of me because I honestly feel like I raised myself and grew up wayyyyyy too fast. I want love romantically and sexually but this kind trust I've never exploved with anyone.

I look forward to talking to someone tonight or maybe in the morning. (I'll be up until 2 EST tonight.)

Please I'm begging one of you, just give me a chance to get some space from my mom. I cannot drive but I can Uber. (I didn't get my license because of COVID being my 11th and 12th grade, I am getting over my fear of driving but cars are things i know nothing about.) I have literally had the best years of my life stolen from me and I just want something back for all the growing up I've done.

I think I'd be comfortable seeing someone around my age please god no one below 20 though I just get the Drake ick from it I'm sorry. And maybe as high as 30 i guess? If you're good enough I promise I'd probably date anyone, I just need to shrink my options a bit. (All those choices would be too much for this little guy, no literally I'm 5'4)

Also can you tell I love involuntarily oversharing?

First come first serve. Shoot your shot. We may love, we may part. Either way, let's start.