I feel like I am going crazy! I try very very hard to be sweet and cute! I just feel like no matter what it will never be enough for somebody. I crave friendship and my own care giver so badly. All I do is try to take others feelings into account and it’s just never enough. No matter what people will always have a problem with me or my kinks and I just feel like I am at my ropes end. There is nothing I can keep doing to engage in this lifestyle without hurting myself or getting hurt :( it is so sad to finally admit that this just might not be for me anymore. Nothing hurts my heart more than thinking I might have found a new friend or caregiver only for them to stop talking within the week or block me completely once they have either found something better or gotten what they wanted out of me. I truly feel like a circus attraction that is on his last go around. I’ve got no love left in my heart and no tears left to cry. I’m sorry for all those who feel the same and I’m very happy for those who have had luck in this lifestyle and are thriving. I genuinely will miss every single one of you. Onto the next chapter