Hey everyone, I'm Syrus (or at least that's my little mode name). I posted a while ago on here and then deleted it... sorry for the repeat. I did it in a bit of an emotional nadir, but now I thought I'd toss it back up again. I'll try not to delete it again ^^"

I'm not a good salesman when it comes to myself, but after a lot of let downs and trauma stuff I find it's best just to get the messy stuff out of the way first - saves on hurt feelings later I think? I'm a gay ab/dl (both), age regressor (2-3, hard to tell really). I'm into other kinks too, like chastity, bdsm, hypno, etc. but it seems that every kink you add in seems to push someone away. Being upfront, I'm really looking for a caregiver/someone who can help me regress, ideally someone geographically close, at least within a few hours drive for play dates. It doesn't have to be sexual, though sure that'd be fun. Ladies, I *could* theoretically have a "mommy" caregiver, but being gay it'd have to be a one-sided thing. The most I could probably do is have some humiliation tossed in for flavor, but I couldn't even kiss my first girlfriend when I tried... believe me I'd be bi if I could be.

Now the messy stuff I guess... I'm ASD (though quite high functioning, it used to be called "Aspergers" but now that's not used), mostly comes out with some small misunderstandings in written text and sensory/processing overwhelming issues. I've got chronic depression and anxiety, and some cptsd nonsense tossed in as well. I'm working to better myself on it, but progress is slow, arduous, and not always forward. I may have very dark days where I can't really talk much, or I may get bleak. I don't know why I show people it... it's almost a reflex, but fair warning I guess. I'm also in an open marriage, and have a boyfriend... so it's all a bit messy there too. Unfortunately, my husband just doesn't jive with this kink, and my boyfriend who does is just ages away physically. I've gone 24/7 diapered for a time just to see if it helps, and it does seem to be - sensory comfort for ASD and such. I find regressing to be the best... "treatment" I guess would be the word? For a time I can sort of sneak past all the bad stuff and be happy, which is why I'm posting here.

If after *all* that you are interested... lemme know. DMs open, even just for friends or nice messages. Sometimes the little things help make a bad day better. <3