Hi, I'm... well I guess the little name I go by is Syrus. I'm a pretty terrible salesman, but after years of letdowns and traumas I guess its better to be upfront about this sort of thing. Less chances for hurt feelings.

I'm an ab/dl both, recently gone 24/7 for mental health reasons. I've struggled with depression and anxiety for a long time, and recently found out there's asd and cptsd components to it as well. One of the only things that helps me, since really none of the meds do (and I've tried) is abdl. Somehow it helps me sneak past the pain... if only for a little bit.

I'm gay, not bi which would be bloody easier trust me, and basically 100% a sub. I like hypno and bondage and chastity and a bunch of other neat stuff, but every other kink one adds seems to push people away. I could have a caregiver relationship with a lady so long as sexual reciprocation weren't expected, I couldn't even kiss my first girlfriend when I tried its that hard wired in me.

If I could... if its even possible... I'd like to find a caregiver somewhere more local. I'm in an open marriage and have a boyfriend which is its own whole messy thing... really I'm just looking for someone who could foster this side of myself since it's the only part I don't feel miserable being. Geographically I'm in southern Minnesota, not far from Mankato. It doesn't have to be sexual, it doesn't have to be romantic... just someone who could help push me into little mode and help take the pain away a bit. Before anyone asks, no I can't do findom. Even if it were my thing, it isn't, can't squeeze blood from a stone. My mental health has me fully out of work.

Sorry for the long depressing read. I hope I followed the rules well enough that it doesn't get instantly sniped down.