Hi!

As some of you may noticed, I've been asking diaper-related questions here and "fleeing" for some time. The thing is, I really want to accept my "weird self" in diapers. I'm an awkward person, my friends in real life know that, they try to make me accept myself and... I think it all might start with wearing diapers more openly. Diapers are my drug, I can say that now after years refusing they make me feel safe and relaxed. They are an escape for my many traumas. But this is taking so long to accept (not just diapers, accepting myself, being myself). I don't know what I'm really trying to ask. I love hiking, going to the mountains and be alone with myself (that's something I also need, being alone and not fearing being alone).

I'm planning a hike today, just going to the mountains near where I live, watch the nature, hear the birds. And for a long time I'm thinking I want to go diapered, I want to spend a whole day there (and maybe the night camping) with my diapers. I know I'll love it, I know there's absolutely nothing wrong with that, but that is where my low self confidence/ auto esteem kick in. It seems so stupid for me to wanting to go, and then not going.

So, here's a question it may help me, to the ones who take diapers as a refuge, to the ones who actually noticed any (positive) difference on themselves after accepting diapers: what did you noticed that changed in your mindset after accepting diapers? Do you actually think diapers helped you in any way accepting yourselves? How?

This may be hard to reply, or maybe it's just me still refusing a little bit to accept that it will help.

Please feel free to send me a DM if you think there's anything you can say that you cannot say in the comments. Also, I may flee again after this post, but I always come back here to check out the answers (even If I don't reply later).

Thank you in advance :)