Hi.

My name is Francisco, I'm 24 years old and I'm a diaper lover from Portugal. I started to take interest in diapers when I was 12 years old, maybe. When a friend of mine that needed to wear a diaper would sleep over at my house, I always used to ask him to bring one for me so I could put it on - never really did it because I always became erect when I tried, he started to check why was taking that long and once saw me on the floor, trying to put the diaper with a huge erection. Later I really did start buying diapers (first for babies, but then I lost the shame to go to the supermarket and buy the "real ones"). At first I would just put them on and quickly take them off, afraid of someone coming to my room and see me like that. Then I thought: "Hey, these are diapers, right? They're meant to take pee (and maybe poop?). That's why they're made.", and I started to enjoy feeling the warm of the pee and later the texture of the poop.

Nowadays I live in a shared house with 3 girls. Sometimes I'm still embarrassed to go buy diapers and I freak out when I poop because the stink usually is too much. I am depressed and a very anxious person, and I know that when I put on a diaper I'll calm down and be in my heaven. I still don't wear them as many times as I would like to because when I'm with friends I'm afraid they notice and ask me about it.

What can I do to wear them every time I want to? How will I deal with questions about my diaper? I would love to wear a diaper around my house with no pants or a robe on.

PS.: Actually, two weeks ago a friend of mine saw one of my diapers and he pretended not to notice, he apologized for looking in my drawer. But later he said "Francisco, thanks for existing. You matter." - and that's what I can't understand when I hear: do people think you're retarded or handicapped for wearing diapers?