Hi everyone, I have been working hard and carefully to ease my partner to just get to the point of being comfy around the whole fetish thing. But now its just getting too hard and futile. So guys i just came here to see on how i can leave all this behind, i just want to leave this so i can lose all the "fun thoughts" i get from these desires and focus on uni and my partner.

Like it just makes me feel stupid with my attempts. Its sad and i've started to get quite sad the past few days and i think it could be abdl related.

My partner has problems sometimes to express themselves to me about this. And they just avoid it as much as they can. Like it doesn't exist, not even the thought of it in the past days as a cause.

Unfortunately I don't get much joy from diaper stuff when im alone, well actually it is counter productive and i feel super weird and bad about it all.

Well just tell me if im just being a dick or im not seeing the situation right.