So I wasnt able to find anything in a search so I figured I would ask. If there was a post on this I wasn't able to find it or maybe not using the right search terms, so I am sorry.

I'm kinda in a sad and down mood at the moment. I havent been able to pad up since March and have been going through bad withdrawl. Then not being able to pad up at Anthrocon i figured I have Wed and Thurs off I can pad up and enjoy some little space...

Well it just totally blew up in my face as I tried to pad up and failed miserably three times in a row and ruining three perfectly good diapers.

First time I have no idea what happened tried to tape up, got taped but for some reason the tapes were tight but the diaper was loose if that makes any sense. And then the tapes just split....

Second time was my fault, thought I hit tapes on landing zone...tried to refasten and found out I was on plastic covering and tore the diaper.

Third time the tapes split again, still unsure why.... maybe defect but your guess is good as mine.

I have never been perfect at diapering myself but I used to be able to do an OK job on my own to at least make the diaper useable. But it seems like I have gotten progressivly worse at diapering myself.

I normally prep the diaper, maybe booster, powder it up and then try to fit it around myself standing up and using a wall to hold the diaper up. Yea tapes are a bit hard but I used to be able to do it. Ive tried laying down but it has never worked out for me.

Does anyone have any tips at all to help a frustrated and sad bab without a caretaker that actually cares?? I really dont know how or why I am failing so miserably right now. Im just kinda lost and with how badly I want to be padded and in little space right now, not being able to when I actually have the free time is really just bringing me down more.