As a kid I was a bed wetter and I was told to deal with it I accidentally found this at 13.. it was bad photoshop of celebrities in diapers It was confusing but I liked it I felt like it was out there so I ignored it.

At 16 i stumbled upon kik and meetme and Abdl found me.. i acknowledged it but couldn’t dare embrace it

At 19 I tried on an adult diaper .. and so started a series of buying and trashing whole packs just to get one for a night I explored omegle and kik to find those like me Only guys I found who wore had “daddy’s” or liked to be with other boys who wore. I was told things that scared me “This is who you are every relationship you hide this in will fail” “Stop denying it you like this and you like what you see” “You can not be straight if you like this”

I denied and denied and I started dating around and ignored these feelings and thoughts

At 21 I lost my virginity and she eventually cheated on me Then I dated a girl who made me see it wasn’t so bad. She wasn’t a mommy or a caregiver but she didn’t care if I liked diapers and she didn’t mind. She took care of me and it made me see subconsciously I wanted to be a little to a mommy

I started exploring the world of Abdl and it took years of binging and purging on diapers feeling like I was leading a double life I realized I wasn’t just a diaper lover I had a little space and at 26 I started exploring it

Now I’m 30 I have a little space and I think I like who I am