Hi so I’ve been ABDL Since i was 18, now im 22 and i developed BPD, anxiety, paranoia and very bad chronic pain that i have to use opioids for and now im dependent on them.

I cannot fuction, im in bed all the time, im unemplyed on benefits, soon to be on disability i hope and i feel bad about it. I dont think i deserve to be alive bc im not contributing to society and currently im draining the health and social system of my country, Czechia. I started to have accidents lately due to my pain and now wear diapers basicaly all the time as precaution. So i also wear onesie and everything to feel less anxious and stressed so i can acually sleep at night. Im very volnurable rn and i have regrets about not being usable in this world. I just take from it and probably will for the majority of my life. I dont want to die but i feel bad about everything and if goverment wanted me dead i wouldnt struggle with it.

Kind words apreciated but i would also like to know your take on this. I love you all babies, continue to be awesome and be safe :)