I love my little side but it feels like such a shift of gears coming out of a little session. It’s like a whole other person takes me over.

I don’t have much time for other interests. I usually do big things at the weekends.

So my week will usually be working 5 weekdays, two of them in the evening I might pad up. It’s like entering another dimension. Then the “spare” days I’m picking up the pieces and reflecting on how intense being little was.

I feel like I’m neglecting my adult non-work persona 🙃

When I’ve had a really intense session, the next day I’ll be looking at my little clothes and dummies floating around and feel nothing.

I guess the main issue for me is getting padded is like a ticking time bomb. It means 10/12 hours from now, I’m going to smell and have a shower and have an adjustment period. I’m sick of that rise and fall. Maybe I should wear but not use them?

It makes my life feel segmented. I spend time not little thinking about being little, and vice versa.

Every couple of days I feel like I reset. I don’t know how to feel confident as an adult when I’ve spent the previous evening stewing in pee. I want to be one person and not have these separate lives.