Hello everyone! Some of you on here might know me from some of my posts, while others (probably the majority) might not know me at all. For those who don't, Hi, I'm Rin! I am currently 23 years old, and I'm a total nerd. I love talking about all forms of art and fiction. Whether it's the interesting cultural and political situations of the Mojave Desert, the evolution of Fire Emblem's tactical gameplay as the games became popular in the Western Market, how David Bowie ended up influencing every major genre of music or going on for hours about my love for The Owl House (no seriously if you ask me about it you may end up getting annoyed with me), the works of others have brought me immense joy over the years.

I am also a huge ABDL. From as far back as I can remember, I've always had a fascination with diapers and baby paraphernalia. Something about them always stuck in my mind. I would fantasize for hours about wearing one again and returning to my years of my youth. I even remember a time in my early years of high school, where I took a towel, an old pair of underwear, and a trash bag and made a makeshift diaper. I wasn't able to live out my dream at the time, so I would spend my days reading stories online. Tales of Love, Acceptance, and yes, lots of diapers. I felt myself living through the character's actions. The diapers, pacifiers, onesies, bottles, all of it filled me with a sense of pure joy, only hampered by my inability to experience them myself.

But then, one day, something amazing happened; I got a job. The wage was low, and the work was awful, but I finally had a source of income! I still remember my first paycheck. As soon as it was deposited, I hopped on Amazon and ordered myself a pack of Tranquility ATNs. I remember the nerves I felt when opening the package for the first time, feeling the texture of the cloth against my fingers. I rushed to put it on, and in that moment, my life changed forever.

I continued to use my newfound financial freedom to explore just how far my kink would go. Over the years I got better brands of diapers (my first ABDL-themed ones being a pack of Dotty Diapers), bought my first pacifier, started using a bottle, and even subscribed to my own private Hulu account so I could watch kid's shows without being judged. I became more comfortable with myself, but I also became more scared. I was afraid of the reactions of others, and being seen as some sort of freak. It filled me with a sort of existential dread that wouldn't go away. The issue was made way worse by my other personal revelations, as I was just beginning to understand both my sexuality and my gender identity. As much as I felt like I was beginning to understand all the things "wrong" with me, I also felt more lost than ever.

Then, I met Nya, and everything changed. I actually met her here on Reddit, from an old post I made in the personals subreddit. We became friends, then ageplay partners, before finally becoming girlfriends after 3 months of me dreading to ask. I've never been more happy than when she accepted my offer to enter into a relationship. (Babe, if you're reading this, I love you more with each passing day). With her, I was able to feel, for the first time in my life, that somebody finally understood me; the real me. Now when I read over the stories I was obsessed with, no more of that sorrow remained in me. I would instead smile, and relate those stories with the stories of my own.

Re-reading those stories made me realize something. Without those stories, my life would be entirely different. And then, I had a thought; why don't I try writing a story of my own? I wasn't new to the writing process (I was a theatre nerd in my school days and wrote many a screenplay. Mostly mediocre, but there were some gems in there) and I had the knowledge of the scene, so what was stopping me? So I started drafting. I began creating characters, scenarios, and anything else that I wanted to see on the page, all to show to myself and the universe that I could.

Which leads me to today. I have finished the first 3 chapters of my story "Embracing Oneself". I chose that name due to my own experiences, but it features entirely original characters. The protagonist is Roxie, a mid-20-year-old with a dead-end job doing data entry, who is caught one day by Emma, her girlfriend, whilst engaging in her secret. I don't want to give anything else away, but if that brief glimpse has whetted your appetite, please consider checking out the rest of the story. It's completely free, and I will be working on more chapters as quickly as possible. You can find it on both r/abdlstories as well as on the Daily Diapers story forum (my username is consistent on all platforms.) If you decide to check it out, I'd truly love to know what you think. I welcome any and all comments, whether you want to say something positive or offer scathing criticism. Thank you for reading this far, and remember one thing; live your life how you want, with the time you have.

Link to Daily Diapers story post: https://www.dailydiapers.com/board/index.php?/topic/90378-embracing-oneself-chapter-3-3102024/#comment-2111211