I’ve been an ABDL for years and years. Basically as long as I remember.

I’ve worn diapers 24/7 for stretches of times in the past, however it’s been over a year since I wore 24/7. This is very important: I don’t believe “unpotty” training is possible. Medically, it simply can’t happen. That said, you can form a habit of using diapers and sort of condition yourself. I’m only saying this because I don’t think it’s related to my medical need for diapers.

5 years ago, I was in an accident. I flipped an off road vehicle. It was dumb. The side-by-side had been “modified” and didn’t have any harnesses or seat belts. I was driving it like an idiot. I flew out. I hit my head and knocked myself out. My helmet saved my life. Compound fracture in my arm. Then the vehicle landed on top of me and caused some damage to my back and abdomen. The doctors were most concerned about that fracture and head injury.

I healed up. I started wearing diapers 24/7 by choice somewhere during the healing journey. Then I stopped. When I stopped wearing diapers all day everyday, I noticed that I was using the bathroom constantly. I’d have very little warning, and then I was running to the bathroom about every 60 minutes. I’d go in small amounts, feel dissatisfied, and then do it again an hour later.

After months of this, I assumed I had done some damage to myself by wearing diapers 24/7. It took a while, but I finally mustered up the courage to talk to my doctor about this issue. It was awkward and frankly a tough convo.

My doctor believes I have overactive bladder as a result of my accident 5 years ago. He told me it’s not possible to cause this issue by simply using diapers all the time. Me peeing constantly and in small amounts is most likely because of the impact to my kidneys and nerves, and how that injury healed. We talked about different ways to manage it, and he told me that if I choose to wear diapers, that’s fine. It’s one way of combating this problem, and I wouldn’t be the only person to choose diapers over other methods. He mentioned I could even ask my insurance to pay for diapers. He made the suggestion off hand, and kind of assumed he said it as a way to make feel better.

I checked and incontinence supplies are covered under my plan.

I just feel terrible. I feel like I’m doing some kind of disservice to the incontinence community. Like I’m a fraud. I liked diapers before the accident and it’s just… too convenient…

Anyways. This is just a vent post. Maybe some kind words would be nice. I’m going to speak to a therapist about this eventually.