For 6 years I was a really lucky girl with both a mommy and daddy. Mostly all online which is totally fine, but we spent 6 years building a life together. And I'm not talking about just random here and there play. I'm talking committed time together.

Well, my "mommy" just got pregnant and decided to walk out. With literally NO warning. Just gone. Sorry. Bye.

What the actual hell.

And now it's my daddy and I. And he's incredible. But he doesn't fill the void that I need filled from having both parents.

So now I'm in a shitty situation where I feel guilty for feeling like he's enough and I don't even desire to be little anymore because it's all too painful.

I want (need) that feminine connection. But I'm also just so sad and pissed off right now. My little life was turned upside down by someone who repeatedly told me "I love you, I'll never leave."

Anyone else have something similar happen?

I'm not sure what I'm looking for...mostly a place to vent and connect with others and I guess just be sad and angry for a little while. But it still seems unreal to me.

Why do people do shit like this...especially to littles who have been vulnerable and open with them for years.

Sincerely, a frustrated and confused little girl.