After 6 years of binging and purging I have finally embraced my DL side, let me give you a bit of a back story so you’ll understand how much I’ve struggled with the desire to wear diapers.

I have liked diapers ever since I was 4 but didn’t start wearing them until I was 16 and only at night. I enjoyed that for a while which I was consistently wearing them nightly. I began to have a lot of shame from wearing and went through a few binge and purge cycles which was extremely annoying & unsettling.

Back in 2018 I came out as ABDL on my Instagram a year after I graduated from high school. I posted a picture of me on my carpet floor in a diaper. The post received 15 likes before I quickly deleted it within 10 minutes. I received a lot of support afterwards although I did get bullied and teased by some people and was unfollowed by some which then revealed the ones who truly did not care bout me as a person. There were lots of people whom I went up to high school with who saw the post and it was even spread to other schools which I found out about because I received a message from a guy that went to another high school and asked me about my post. He told me that people from my school were telling people from other schools and spreading it around. The post was spur of the moment because this was during a very dark period in my life where I had a number of tragic things happen Including loss in my immediate family and a number of other things that I won’t discuss. I felt that I wanted to express about how ABDL helps me cope which I included in the caption of the post.

Although there were some positives about the post. This experience led me down a path to feel even more deeply ashamed than I already had been from the diaper desires. I went through a spiritual awakening in 2020 which pressured me to quit wearing forever. I stopped wearing for over 3 years but during that time I was having constant urges to wear again because I started to realize that diapers are a part of who I am and I should embrace it so I decided to wear again for comfort and possibly for my mental health if need be.

All in all I’m very proud of myself for how far I’ve come and I’m embracing being a diaper boy ❤️