when you see parents with their kids, and they treat the kids kindly. They show them love, carry them, play with them, feed them. They don’t threaten them or hit them. I personally get very jealous, and it makes me really mad and super depressed at the same time. I grew up being beat and neglected, my parents gave so much attention to my younger siblings and I was alone a lot as a kid because of it. I wish so badly to experience love like that, and to feel safe. I was always so anxious as a kid, and I felt like I lost out on a lot. The way I was treated growing up, combined with the attention my younger siblings received instead of me is a huge reason why I both despise kids and why I age regress. I never want kids, I never have and I never will. I want to be loved like how I never got to be, and I want to be the kid. I’m just curious on everyone’s opinions.