So I work for a dispatch agency for a capital city. I had a lot of issues on radio training, and it really messed with my mental health. Long story short, my mental health declined in addition to personal issues going on in my life. I made the mistake of telling a supervisor that I was feeling suicidal and they ended up putting me on 3 months of mandatory leave.

I was able to use FMLA to cover my ass financially for about a month then the money ran out. Which didn’t help the depression. Not one supervisor or even our on staff therapist reached out while I was struggling. I had to move out of my home because I could pay my rent.

I got reevaluated to see if I was able to come back for duty and I was approved. So they are starting me back on phone training. They immediately put me on PIP which means I’m not able to receive my yearly raise.

I’m still struggling with the depression and dread going g to work everyday. I call out sick often, and have to provide a doctors note every time I miss be ause I have no leave at all.

I really want to quit, but I can’t because I don’t have another job lined up, I’d prefer they just fire me so I can collect unemployment.

I don’t know what to do. I’m so tired of hearing other call takers on the floor making mistakes I don’t make and yet I’m still in “training” for call taking.

I don’t care about this job anymore and I’m confused as to how people have been here for decades.

Side note: we use proQA and IAED protocols. My calls are constantly high compliant. I honestly feel like they’re trying to get me to quit because they can’t fire me for mental health.