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Dont ever want to be here ever. I had my first attempt October 8th when ive never felt suicidal before. My guess 1. the addiction, 2. I got a bipolar 1 diagnosis at 18, now my doctor tthinks irs BPD Which wouldnt be crazy, My mom unalived herself in 2019 and it was blamed on BPD and schizophrenia. Thanks ' mom. Im 19 years old. I dont find joy in anything, IHavent been able to leave my bed in idk how long and its never been this bad. Whatever the diagnosis is its progressing! I had a problem with benzos which I went to rehab for but now I cant stop coke or alcohol, Which is actually what i tried to 💀 myself with the first time. I just had to block my whole family. No man has ever treated me right. Im too depressed to be around friends. Im sick of this. Taking another bump, idk whats gonna happen but goodnight.
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