tl;dr at bottom.

To start it off, i'm kind of a meticulous person that likes to keep track of even the tiniest of changes, for the sake of replication and fully understanding why things happen/what causes them. From my past experience i've been upping dosage in the same place, mostly had overnight sessions with friends at a house. But one time the trip was pretty surreal and morbid, i ended up believing I was an addict and everyone was gone. It was tragic in the moment, but i ended up finding a way to make things feel meaningful and in my power to change things for the better. There is a lot more to the trip, but that could be it's own post honestly. The night was an absolute mind fuck. After the trip I told myself it's time to take a break for a bit, but I can't help but think that its just the same environment that made my trip get worse. The room was cold, i ended up just laying down and being on my own. Isolated night time, everyone's asleep. If I had to be honest I never had a trip that wasn't overnight, which always pissed on the next day since I was completely out of it. Any thoughts? Should I go out to the beautiful park and trip? Listen to some insane music? My first trip i remember just singing 2 albums straight, very emotionally intense I loved it. Is it even worthwhile to shoot for higher dosage or is it just a sign of tolerance? I was a bit arrogant about going "harder" for a crazier trip, but now I'm more careful.

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tl;dr: Wacky last trip made me more cautious. Curious if I should just change my environment for a potential next trip? Thoughts on increasing dosage? Worthwhile goal or just a matter of finding the Goldilocks zone?