A little background...my OCD is mainly due to fear of contamination. I'm not afraid of getting sick from germs, per se. It's the overwhelming fear I have that something will get so contaminated to a point where I cannot undo it, and get it back to the "clean" state. In my mind, the only way for something to really get decontaminated is if it can be washed down the drain. Sounds simple, but not everything can be washed down the drain (i.e. my cell phone, the interior of my car, my drums, etc.) For some things that I am not able to decontaminate, I avoid like the plague. That also includes the avoidance of not just things, but people (including members of my family and friends) and places (I don't hang out in my living room unless I want to take a shower before going to bed...and it might mean that would be the third shower I've taken in one day). So, after a while, my world starts to feel really claustrophobic and the idea of becoming a hermit like Howard Hughes starts to sound really great despite the reality of the loneliness. Thankfully I'm currently taking 80mg Prozac and seeing a therapist...both my therapist and psychiatrist are aware of my LSD use...and neither of of them feel like I'm showing any signs of potential substance abuse problems. They know that my LSD use is not about wanting to get high and wasted. While Prozac has made a significant reduction in my overall anxiety, I still tend to have a bit of anticipatory anxiety about "what if something happens that I can't control". My psychiatrist wanted to add an atypical anti-psychotic (Risperidone) to try to help alleviate the "irrational thinking". I've been hesitant starting on Risperidone because the of fatigue and other side effects. Anyway, with the number of references, studies, and reports about psychedelics helping with anxiety/OCD, I decided to do my own research. I decided not to start taking Risperidone at all because I understand that it will completely nullify the effects of LSD.

I've been taking 300ug of 1P roughly twice a month for the last 3 months...at least 14 days in between (I started on 1P and then switched over to 1A, which feels better for me physically and seems to give me more vivid visuals). 300ug is intense, but it isn't overwhelming for me. It's enough to make me feel like I'm getting reacquainted with the world. What I have noticed is that when I am on LSD, my general feelings of disgust about the world around me takes a back seat and it is replaced with a general feeling of fascination. It's like I'm re-learning and re-associating my emotions with objects and I don't automatically feel afraid of them. After the LSD wears off, I'm not necessarily "cured" but I notice that a number of things continue to take a back seat in my mind. Like, lately, when people shake my hand, my automatic reaction isn't to start thinking about how quickly I can sneak to the bathroom to wash my hands. In fact, there are several times where I've not felt like I've needed to wash my hands at all. Also, I have a tremendous discomfort around flying bugs, and normally, if a flying bug gets within an inch to my face (even without touching) I get an overwhelming urge to wash my face or clean with alcohol wipes. But, as of lately, I've had bugs fly past my face and my anxiety/discomfort is significantly minimal...not necessarily gone, but sometimes minimal enough for me to ignore the event altogether. It's not perfect and sometimes I still have the compulsion to clean, but I'm able to ignore things a little more often than I have been in the past.

The other thing I've noticed is that my psoriasis has started to subside. It may be a combination of the fact that having less anxiety in general has lowered the amount of cortisol in my system and subsequently decreased the overall inflammation happening. But, I've also seen someone mention in other forums that LSD tends to act as a TNF inhibitor and that's what a lot of anti-inflammatory biological drugs (like Humira) do.

Now, despite these positive observations I've been having, I'm still concerned about the negative effects from consistent and long term use of LSD. Although, LSD is generally considered non-toxic and non-addictive (certainly far safer on the heart than MDMA), I'm just wondering what other peoples' opinions are in regards to risks/safety for doing 300ug every two weeks for months on end? Is that excessive? Or would that still be considered "occasional" usage? Should I try to keep at only once a month?