After talking to a psychologist for teenagers and listening to her talk about her (50) challenges with her 30 year old bf we made a pact about raising our standards. Once you raise your standards only then can you find someone who meets them.

I'm tired after a long day at work I realized that i was lonely. Lonely in a way that flirting with Redditers didn't seem to cure.

For my standards: Someone who wants to make me feel special. I don't know how I feel about polyamory. I do know that my partners haven't provided me with enough time or emotional support. I want all of their attention. All of their time. All of their love. 20 minutes of time a day. Maybe cute messages left on each other's mailbox each day. I don't have any specifications for gender or height or weight. I think what's really attractive to me is a people's personality. Being able to find joy and light in the every day mundane. Letting me point out a rare bird or just a turkey vulture and being able to share in my pleasure. I want to be able to cook with someone. Spend that quality time together to meal prep and then be able to sustain ourselves. I find myself getting cranky without food and having snacks helps me refocus. I want someone with passions. Interests. Someone I can share my love of the world with. Someone who wants to learn just as much as I do.

I want to be loved.