Hi Universe,

I have a bone to pick with you. This has been such a long road and there have been so many obstacles that you've thrown at me, and I'm still here. I have somehow pushed through it all, where others would have succumbed so easily. I always felt you had better for me tucked up your sleeve and that I just needed to be patient and hang in there. And I have. But after all this time, I wonder if you think it's all just one big joke.

I never ask for much...a bit of love and kindness, and to no longer feel so deeply lonely. I was telling a friend not too long ago that loneliness sure is a killer. That it tears at you from the inside savagely and makes you crave someone, anyone. He agreed that it makes you want to have someone that you can share life's moments and adventures with, someone to share intimacy with.

I do my best to not let that stupid loneliness creep in, but sometimes it happens. You blow little breezes at this stack of cards I call my life, and in that moment, when the cards are falling all around me, I see it. The reminder that you try to do with me as you please and that you have no plans to let me escape the loneliness.

But joke's on you, Universe. I refuse to let you win. I will continue to stay positive, smile, and face each day with hope and faith that everything will get better. I am flipping you a bird and turning my beacon on so my someone can find me. I know he is out there and you won't stop us from finding each other. I can feel him deep in my bones...deep in my heart and soul. And he's probably wondering where I'm at. So on that note, eff you, Universe. I got places I have to be.

Hang in there, hun. It won't be long now until we find each other...