I just don’t understand it ya know? i think i’m fine and bam it just attacks me and drags me so far down. I wanna cry and break down but i have to be strong. whatever that means. I’m tired of being strong and pretending i’m okay but in my head if i break then i am weak. I want to talk to someone but i am afraid to. idk what of, I am 23 years old. I am my own worst enemy and I hold my own self back from achieving success. My brain kicks me when i’m up and it kicks me more when i fall to the ground. I never feel like i’ve reached success, i never feel like I am wanted. I even have a girlfriend and i always assumed that would help but every time i date, i get this weird regret about being in a relationship and it inevitably ends. I know i need help but I am afraid to ask.