Idk why I’m posting on my own wall with zero followers but here I am. Maybe as a way to say things I can’t really tell anybody. Kind of like a journal I guess? Anyways, I just want to be happy man. I want to be my old self again. Before all of the failed relationships, before the depression, before the anxiety, before everything. But no matter what I do nothing seems to work. I want to go to the gym but I can’t make myself do it. I want to go outside more, I want to do a lot of things but after work I find myself laying in bed pondering life. Why am I so unhappy? Where did the switch flip in my life? I read old messages I sent and get upset because I used to have such a great personality but now it’s just gone. I want to be me again. I want to feel like me again. I know I will I just need to keep pushing. Just after all these years, it gets so exhausting. Trying over and over.