I've came to appreciate the simplicity of certain things in life, that is not to say that I am of the opnion that all things can be boil down to simple answers, in fact, I belive the more one is to look for answers, more despair they are to find, existence in itself is a rather non-defined thing, my own vision of things may as well be the only true thing, and all the world a construct of my higher self as some New Age Gurus would say, yet, to trully belive in that idea is a rather self-destructive habit, it's a delusion, perhaps, a way to escape the reality you're in confined inside, to think all can just be manipulated easily is conforting, to imagine there's some destiny out there to guide your actions is also conforting, but to think your decisions, all of them, are factors that influence the world and the lifes of all around you, it may end up hurting, the same to think that there may be things outside your influence, things you'd not be able to change no matter what, it's hilarious, it's pain all around, I wonder, however, which is less painful to some, I take choices myself over destiny, I can bear self-hate and pity for what I've done, if all is my fault, great, then I hope at least some people may end up better than myself, in fact, I cannot really fathom someone that'd take the destiny and control route, but it does sound slightly more pleasant.