I love CNC (at least I think I do) and have a past full of SA. I guess it’s no surprise that that would drive me to enjoy CNC, but the more I partake in it, the more I feel guilty. I also have a breeding kink that is sometimes upsetting more than it is arousing.

 I find myself having hookups frequently that revolve around CNC scenarios and sometimes even being creampied if I’m too under the influence to exercise better judgment. After the fact, I always regret it, but I find myself seeking that attention over and over again.

 I think that I just enjoy the attention. Of course, as a trans man, I’ll allow others to misgender me because then more people will interact with me since misgendering seems to be such a popular kink. I do enjoy it at least a little bit, but damn, if it doesn’t make me feel guilty, lol.

 I’m open to talking about this in messages if you want to tell me how I shouldn’t feel guilty and that this is natural for me as a woman :)