I'm learning English, and in 2023 I've found, that I am able, finally, read fiction books! Each time when I did it before, it were too difficult, because of vocabulary limitations, because I spent more an internal energy than got it during reading.

If we speak about my reading on my native language, I read thousands of books, and my favourite genres are love stories and a hard science fiction. In terms of romances, I like, probably, everything: modern/office novels(like office manager boss), history novels, fantasy, history novels (like lady pirate captain stories), and a lot of other stuff.

I'm a transgender woman myself, and always felt lack of texts in my native language with transgender protagonist. Or maybe... Felt, but not understood, how strong I wanted to read this kind of texts!

So, I'm looking for stories where I can face with a protagonist like me: a straight (like boys) transgender girl, which is passes as female - at least in the end of story, and better if she lives in the stealth.

What I already read, and what I want to rate 5 stars from 5 stars:

"If I was your girl"

I can't explain, how much it fits with my personality! And how much I associated an emotional experience of protagonist with myself! Trigger warning: a lot of gender dysphoria and society, family acceptence stuff

"Almost perfect"

Narrator of this story is a boy, and this story made me really sad, I cried a lot after it! And you know? I always like to cry after a sad story. And it were fascinating to watch a story of a person, which I really associated with myself, from a cis boy POV. Trigger warning: a lot of gender dysphoria, family acceptence, violence and other heavy stuff. Probably, it's no way if you not to cry during reading.

Antipatterns for me could be stories about transition in late years (I started in 17, and if my parents were not against, I'm sure, I could start 12), sissy/fetish stories with forced feminization(weird thing, because I always knew that I don't like be boy, and want to be a girl, even in 5 years old), probably I don't want to read lesbian novels. Well, I think I'll read in future novels about late transitioners, and about transwoman lesbians(but not fetish/sissy stuff), but I'm learning English now, and I want at first read stories which could fit with my personality the most. Most likely as second stage, I'll start to re-read my favourite novels with standard female(cis) protagonist - in this time, on original language.

Another antipatern is a "fantasy in space", like "space wars", and all this superhero stuff (never were nerd enough for this, even before transition and my attempts to convert myself in the "normal boy"). But just fantasy, with magic, dragons, elfs, etc - it's pretty ok, if it's not pretend to be science fiction.

I expect a love plot in the novel, and protagonist's soulmate should be a cis-male, or a trans man. But also it could be a story without a love line. Or it could be not very important - if it's science fiction.

What I already have in my reading list:

• For the Love of April French by Penny Aimes
• Birthday by Meredith Russo
• Luna, by Julie Anne Peters
• For the Love of April French, by Penny Aimes

Also, I've read several stories on wattpad. But found nothing so good, as two novels which I rated as 5/5 in this post, but I can say, I've also enjoyed a lot - reading this stuff on Wattpad I've found, that I can read and be happy, and it's a new epoch in my learning English journey!