So, I (25M) have been hooking up with this girl (22F) for a while. I usually go and see her when I'm on my lunch break at work since she lives nearby and I get an hour for lunch. Earlier this week she asked me if I wanted to come over during my lunch as usual and thought I may as well, was feeling a little horny. I got over to her place and saw that she had her laptop setup facing her couch, she asked if I was okay with her taking a video of us going at it and I said I was fine with that. So we get down to business and I usually just lower pants just past my dick (I wear business casual stuff to work and usually don't feel like taking my pants off since I'd have to take my shoes off too). But this time she asked if I could take off my pants since it was making the position a little difficult so I obliged. I took off my shoes and pants and we got back to things. Here's a little background for the next part, long story short, my right thigh is covered in a lot of scars from self inflicted injures in my past. I'm a pretty pale guy, so despite these pretty old, they're still quite red and very noticeable. So when I looked over to her laptop that was recording I noticed my scars were incredibly noticable. It made me feel pretty uncomfortable so my dick started going soft. She asked me if everything was alright and I just said work had been stressful and it was causing my mind to drift. At that point I realized it had been around 40 mins so I just told her I had to get going. I cleaned up and left and was so sure she was going to just block me after that. I felt so embarrassed and the rest of the day was just horrible.

Fast forward a couple days and she sends me a message asking if I'm still interested in her. I imagine she thought me going soft was just me not being into her anymore and I told her I was and that I had just been really stressed lately. Then she messaged me "How have you been?" It seemed kinda random so I just replied "What do you mean?" And she said "I mean, are you okay?". I realized at that point she must have looked back at the video and saw my scars clear as day. I just said "Yeah. Just stressed." I don't know if I'm going to ever see her again now and I don't really know what she thinks of me now as her messages have been pretty short. I've already dealt with people in the past who thought much lesser of me after knowing I've self harmed. I suppose it's a good sign that she didn't immediately block me, but I guess we'll see.

TLDR: Girl I hookup with asked to make a video of us going at it. Due to the position, my very obvious self harm scars on my thigh were clear as day. She saw them and now things are awkward.

EDIT: I've seen some people bringing this up, when this girl and I first met I had asked her if she wanted to grab dinner and she declined saying she was only looking for sex right now. I guess that's the main reason why her response to me surprised me.