so I (M23) love being in relationships. I love having someone there for me, to talk to, to try new things with, etc. But after a little bit i start to feel a sort of regret about dating someone. i know they say “boredom is peace” in a relationship and i have tried to come to terms with that but i crave chaos. i grew up around chaos (rough life) and it’s like i need that in my life now. things go “too good” in a relationship and it just automatically ruins it for me and i don’t know how to fix the way i think about it. I know things are fine but chaos keeps me going i don’t know how to explain it. And i know it’s bad for me to think like this i just can’t help it idk what to do. I ruin all my relationships like this and i feel like it’s gonna happen again.