I completely understand. Depression has kicked my ass for 6 years, and I’m the type of person that doesn’t want to burden other people with my own problems. I just want to give you a little advice. You aren’t alone. Guess what? There is light at the end of the tunnel. You may not see it, you may think you are in complete darkness, but I can assure you it’s there. I got so depressed that I completely shut everyone off. I haven’t been in a real relationship, and I really don’t have many friends. I’m a total virgin, and I haven’t even kissed a girl despite the fact that I’m 18. My family constantly makes fun of me for it, but I’m at the point that I don’t care. Why am I telling you all this, even though most of you don’t care? It’s to show you that there are other people struggling with you. Things have been looking up recently, and they are going to continue to get better. After all that time, I had fallen into a hole that I knew I had to get out of. I started focusing on improving myself and my negative line of thinking. Along my self improvement journey I gained confidence and decided to follow my dreams. I joined the volunteer fire department of my town, which was super unusual for someone of my age. I was then surrounded by supportive people who had a similar interest in helping others. I built connections there that led to me getting an awesome job that not many teens have the opportunity to have. I get paid really well, have an awesome boss, and get to work on and learn about cars all day. And since my self esteem has grown and I focus more on how I present myself and come off to others, I have been getting a lot of positive female attention. Do I still struggle? Absolutely. I have no true friends, and am still a hopeless romantic. I also still doubt myself all the time, and overthink everything. But guess what? I was in a dark place and I pushed through. I am not special or unique, you can do the same thing. So to all of you really struggling, I ask that you give it more time. If you are at rock bottom, the only direction you can go is up. It may seem daunting and hopeless, but I promise there are people there to help you up and want you to succeed. I love and care for each and every one of you, so please, just wait. Things WILL improve. Hugs and best wishes to all of you. ❤️ If anybody wants to talk, don’t be afraid to DM me. I want every single person here to succeed and live long, happy lives.