You’re not a burden on people. You matter to people and you make the world a better place just by being here. You may think that, just because other people enjoy hurting you that maybe you’ll enjoy it too. That’s not how it works, the only reason it makes you feel better is due to the placebo effect. So if you really want to feel pain then use this: run a steaming hot shower then use a rough flannel and rub it on your skin until it goes red, then hop into the shower. It will hurt but it won’t cause any permanent damage to you and you can feel your problems running down the drain with the water. I’ve tried it myself and it’s very helpful. So remember, you are special, you are worthy and you are loved. You deserve to be happy and to be alive and the world wouldn’t be the same without you. I’ll talk to anyone that’s needs to rant or just to talk. Thanks for coming to my ted talk, I love you guys, peace ✌️