So, just a disclaimer, I've only been practicing for a few months and, while I am generally compelled to read the cards intuitively, I still refer to guides for reference while I learn what the symbols in the cards even are.

I drew the first card, 5 Cups, after asking the cards what I needed to know about my current situation (tl;dr - going thru a break up along with other major life changes all at once). Yes, fair, I'm focusing on cups spilt. My therapist and I dissected this card fairly thoroughly and it occurred to me that it's difficult to carry my two remaining cups over the bridge back home without knowing what that home looks like (having to move out with two kids on top of the breakup while I have no real job prospects fresh off my psych undergrad).

So before my next session, I asked what I should be looking for--what does a home made on my terms look like, specifically. I ended up drawing the right card, 10 Cups. Great, so yes, I get it, a happy family is the goal (not necessarily literally, I'm aware), but it really stuck with me that you can't see the happy couples faces in the cards (something the guides didn't alert me to).

This left me and my therapist with unanswered questions, so after my session, I drew another card to represent the bridge between these two, so obviously connected cards. Practically, what does this bridge look like? What must I do to get from a sad sack literally crying over spilt milk to the harmonious other side of the river in the 10 Cups? I drew the Page Wands.

My interpretation is that I just have to think outside the box, perhaps sit a little more still, and trust the process. It takes a long time for a small stalk to travel all the way up to push its leaves out of the top of that wand. Even if it looks like the tiniest growth, the real growth is concealed within the grain of the wand. In talking with my partner/ex-gf/BFF (the fb designation "it's complicated was designed for us) and she reminded me that wands, according to some traditions contain some form of organic life embedded into them. That struck me.

So this morning I was contemplating it all. I like to leave cards this important out for as many days as it takes me to process, so these have been on my dining room table for two weeks and, as I finally put them away, accepting that my assignment is to be patient and watch the synchronicity around me until answers make themselves known, I drew another card, asking what I might take as comfort while I sit in this uncertainty. The card I drew?

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The Fool 😅

My deck got jokes.