CROSS-POSTED I don’t know if this is the right place to post this so please forgive me if I’ve gotten it wrong, but this sort of seems tantric so I’m gonna start here. I was in a relationship with a guy who I feel entangled himself within my energy through sex. I’m aware of sex being a sacred energy exchange and being entangled with people even without intention when you sleep with them. However, this felt very intentional.

We would lay together, not touching but exchanging energy back and forth. He was the one who showed me how this worked, I’d never experienced it before with anyone else. Once I even glanced up at him doing a tying motion at our bellies (during intercourse) and whispering something but I never mentioned it cause how does one bring that up in normal conversation? Well every time I bring it up or try to talk about it (the energy exchange we do), he’s avoidant. He says he doesn’t know what’s going on. We even broke up over it once. I stupidly came back, believing his “innocence”. Now, months after the final breakup, he’s back to pretending like it never happened, which is why I feel manipulated.

The thing is, whatever he was doing awakened something in me. My heart chakra opened, and during one of our times together, I literally left my body and was swimming in a pool of ecstasy. At first I thought we were special, like twin flames or something. And ig that might still be true. But there’s something off about the whole thing. The fact that he keeps invalidating the experience makes it seem like he’s hiding something.

And now I’m starting to think that I experienced the spiritual awakening as some sort of protection against him. I even watched a video once about “black tantra” and how you could literally be attached to someone, send them your feelings, check in on their emotional state, and even physically move them. Yes, this also happened to me. So I’m thinking it was something like that? Sadly, I haven’t seen much more online about it.

It’s so bizarre and I just don’t know how to explain it and I’m starting to run out of resources to help me find answers. Please tell me if you or someone you know has experienced this? Or if it’s something you’ve heard about or if you have any ideas what could be happening here. I appreciate any feedback.