On Friday, I have a pivotal decision to make: whether or not to attend an erotic naked yoga retreat in Mexico scheduled for a few months from now. To provide some background, I’m a 19-year-old gay man from a small town in Kansas. I’m still a virgin and have only engaged in sexual activity twice, both times at first base. The prospect of sex is quite daunting for me, and I’m struggling with deep-seated insecurities about my body—I've never felt comfortable being seen naked by anyone.

The retreat in question is quite unconventional. It involves around 15-20 gay men gathering at a villa in Mexico, engaging in naked yoga and other activities designed to promote self-acceptance and body positivity. I’ve watched some of their videos, and the experience seems like it could be exactly what I need to overcome my fears and build a more positive self-image.

However, given my limited sexual experience and the fact that I’ve never been intimate with anyone, this opportunity represents both a challenge and a potential breakthrough. I’m grappling with whether to invest in this experience, which might help me find the acceptance I’m looking for, or to wait for a potentially more suitable time, which may never arrive. I’m seeking advice on how to navigate this decision. Should I take the plunge and spend the money, or hold off in hopes of a better moment?