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I experience weight fluctuations, for reference. Iād experienced a random gain last year and was slowly trying to tone up and whatnot. But because I kept getting sick, I couldnāt work out a lot.
I had a semi-regular worth a few hundred for a while. When I gained weight weād still dance a bit, but then out of nowhere he wasnāt as interested. Thatās fine, no problem at all.
The last time I worked, he was there. He wanted a few dances and as Iām dancing he points out that I lost ālike a LOT of weightā and tells me I look good now . I immediately felt gross. Iāve been getting comments from more than just customersā random people in my personal life notice it.
I didnāt lose a ton of weight on purpose. After my love passed, I couldnāt hold down more than a handful of dry cheerios for two weeks. My appetite has changed, my body is weaker.
The grief hit like a ton of bricks after that. I donāt really look like myself anymore. Iām used to comments on my body but every time someone tells me how much Iāve lost I want to scream. We get it. Iām smaller again, woohoo or whatever
Yeah I think thatās why theyāre saying it to me. Iāve always had kind of an hourglass / pear shape.
I do manage to eat, but itās definitely not as easy. Iām only a little over two months in. And thank you. The thought counts, so thank you.
Thank you, yeah. No I donāt mind if Iām not everyoneās cup of tea. Iāve been dancing long enough to be fine with that. I just didnāt expect him to comment on how much I lost. Luckily I donāt have many people in my personal life at all in general, so itās not too many people making comments there.
And I yeah, do those thingsā I actually do eat a bit, I try to eat healthier but it also isnāt always an option. My physical health sometimes leaves me stuck in bed for a couple days, even before he died. Iāve been meal prepping wraps and such to keep some sort of food in me. Thank you for the ideas and the time you took to comment though. The thoughts matter š
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Oh my god yes you get it. I was literally like 120-130 pounds or so (5ā2) and honestly looked fine! I had a little extra chub (which is more than okay) on my lower tummy and hips, but muscle from dancing too.
It sucks so bad. I know theyāre meaning it as a compliment because they think it was intentional or that Iām working out. But Iām not. Iām a lot weaker than I was before. Iām just like guys Iām not actually any āhealthierā just because I got smaller. A lot of people think theyāre kind ofā¦ congratulating me ? Like. This isnāt a good thing lol.
For some reason it makes me feel even more disconnected from my boyfriend, too. Not sure why.