At the beginning of 2023 I was confused, exhausted and so off track it wasn’t even funny. I worked New Years hiding self harm at the club, spent months so depressed I hardly did anything. I spent half the year trying to relearn hustle, boundaries, gain my confidence and skills back. I was like a zombie after shifts, sitting down in my shower and staring at the wall.

My savings were depleted, my body ached, I relied on fast food to keep myself alive. And then July rolled around and I got some fucking act right. I stopped excuses, I stopped being lazy at work, I started fixing myself.

Now my savings are rebuilding and I have a new car. I look forward to working and made peace with my body’s needs. I have long term goals again. My hustle is back and I’m considered one of the clubs top earners.

Tomorrow makes an official one year without any self harm relapse. I walked into 2023 with fuck-all. I’m leaving it excitedly looking forward to a blossoming relationship with someone who makes me feel on top of the world. And maybe my savings are “okay” at best right now, but they’ll grow. I’m spending this New Years eating nachos on my couch, instead of in the club.

It can get better!! Go get some act right and make it better !!!