Is it possible a person can really be themselves on tren when everyone around them says they think it is changing his behavior and he’s acting erratic? He is in true denial and says the tren is just making him be stronger mentally and allowing him to speak his mind even though the things he’s saying are completely opposite his character has ever been?

He went from loving, caring dad and husband who would never get a divorce, who was so appreciative of me, and so in love with me. A person who was happy and fun, silly all the time. Literally said he would never ever in his darkest days get a divorce that wasn’t even in the cards because we’re for life. To all of a sudden within a 3 week span from never get a divorce to now he “thinks but doesn’t know” if he wants to be with me, loves me but not “in love” with me, super snappy with me and the kids, when I try to be myself and caring to him he hates me for it, even to they point of saying that he’d be happy if I found another man that made me happy because he just can’t, only to turn around and be intimate with me every night since this discussion. Everything seems so erratic and absolutely not his character and bizarre. He has zero emotion, and even gets mad that I’m sad that I am losing my husband. Like legitimately mad at me for crying when he says he’s not in love with me, like I’m not allowed to be sad. He even ran over our brand new puppy and killed him accidentally during this time… and cried uncontrollably at that but losing his wife and kids like zero emotion… his brain seems so out of whack, like he’s not thinking. Says he comes home for work and the kids don’t need him, they only want me, I don’t need him, and that we should just live a fun and happy life without him since that’s what we already do. But then comes back to say if we get a divorce it’s 50/50 custody. His sister recently is dealing with her husbands dad diagnosed with stage 4 cancer given 1 month to live whom she’s very close to and I asked him to check in on her and his response was she has a therapist why doesn’t she just go to him since they’re the magical fix. I just find this behavior so weird and inappropriate/All in a span of 3 weeks during his 1 cycle of tren. He has never been so incompassionate. He even like literally is disgusted to the point of anger at people at our gym. Like if someone tries to ask if he’s done with the rack, or some tried to spot him (when he’d benching 400lbs) or if a guy is wearing too tight of a shirt they’re all “fucking losers.” He doesn’t need a spotter, how dare that idiot ask me if I’m done with the equipment. Like super weird anger towards these people. He says I am no fun because he wants me to get drunk with him (which I rarely did before kids) but I don’t because I am stuck taking care of our babies Alone the next day hungover myself and that’s not fun for me! He won’t even help when he’s hungover or at all really. He says I suck and he doesn’t like doing things with me. Rather do things with the kids by himself. Even though he’s never done anything with the kids alone because he chooses not to. He’s told me why would I take you out on a date to try to fix things all you order is a fucking salad, I’m not wasting my time and money for a fucking salad. He said he unhappy because of me, so I’m the on that forces him to do drugs to find happiness. Including doing cocaine multiple times, even bought $500 of Coke for our 2 year olds birthday.

Update: My husband sought out a woman from his past, during this time, met up with her for two days, and started to have an emotional relationship with her after 2 days! She was fully convinced he was leaving me for her.

Apparently he cycles on tren unknown to me 1 time a year every year and we’ve really never had too many issues at all with it… but his life recently has been extremely more stressful than previous years. He also left me once around this same time acting the same way 5 years ago. But he snapped out of that time fast. He has lied to me the whole time saying he only does test. He denies with pure anger when brought up that the tren is causing or contributing to these feelings and thoughts. He says okay if I cycle off tren and still am not in love with you then what?

I just am so hurt by everything he constantly says and does. I feel like the man I married died. Like he’s gone and it’s so so confusing for me and my babies. I’ve been staying strong for all of us, still loving him, making him lunches, cleaning his clothes, hot dinner for him, and being extremely intimate in crazy ways with him every single day. Does anyone out there genuinely think the tren isn’t affecting him at all like he says? Or am I just in denial that husband doesn’t love me anymore and is gone? What do I need to do to help him realize the tren could be hurting us?

UPDATE 4/1

So my husband is now two and a half weeks off tren and he’s a 180 different person. Wants to make us work. Crying that he doesn’t know why he just blew up our lives. He loves me and he wants to try to fix us and our family. Saying he will hate himself forever if he loses me, and is totally a different man. He is trying with the kids the last two days. He has been extremely open and honest with me, and told me the whole truth about everything. And ya… so I think the tren truly exacerbated his depression and sent him into a manic frenzy. Obviously we’re only 2 days into this new version of him and hopefully his actions will continue to prove he wants us.

UPDATE 4/18

My husband is fully off Tren and other substances. He doesn’t know why he did what he did. He said he has absolutely no feelings for the woman at all, and doesn’t give a f about her. He’s like I cannot believe I almost threw my whole life away, he feels tren was a major culprit because he has no idea what he was even thinking. He said what if I left you, and I obviously jumped into some relationship that would never have worked, and then lost you and kids completely. You would have divorced me, found another man, and he would have been a full time dad to our kids. I cannot believe I did this and almost lost my whole family and world. For a woman he doesn’t even care about. He said he would have ruined his life and he cannot believe the decisions he had been making. He said he’s fully in love with me and always has been, and wants to make us work in any way he can. He still has a little lasting anger but I think it’s towards himself for doing what he did. He just can’t believe it.

Tren is one heck of a drug my friends. For all the wives going through this… the half life of the Trenbolone Enanthate is 11 days, fully out of the system in 22 days. It’s going to feel like long waiting game of hell but set a day counter on your phone. Wait it out, he will come back to you. Craziest 1 month of my whole entire life.