For the longest of times I’ve been excusing my cheating because my wife and I were in the lifestyle. Specifically we had threesomes and had other ladies join us and did the occasional couple swap. Our rule was we could only play together. For years I have been breaking that rule telling myself we already have sex with other people so what does it matter? Honestly I have always been able to justify my cheating rather it was that we weren’t married yet or, that we had just got into a big fight. Over the years my wife has gone back and forth on rather or not she liked being in the lifestyle. My sex drive is so much higher than hers and I’m a lot more kinky than her so it was a way for her to help feed my appetite I guess and she likes eatting pussy occasionally. This past weekend we had another threesome and she said she wanted it to be our last. She has no idea that this whole time I’ve been cheating because I wanted to have group sex more often than we were and now she wants to cut off all external pussy cold turkey… Now I’m at a crossroads because if I cheat even though there has never been an excuse for it, now there is no justification I can make.