Me and my girlfriend have a long distance relationship, that has been going on for more than 2 years now. However it's a while since a problem has come out, and I haven't been able to solve it yet. She doesn't want me to masturbate alone, which would be ok if the solution was: let her watch or do it together; however her libido is different from mine, and if I express my horniness while she isn't in the mood, she usually gets upset so I try to avoid talking about that. Right now it's becoming quite insufferable though: I also use masturbation not only for pleasuring myself but also for releasing tension and stress, so being denied of that release kinda upsets me.

And no, doing it without telling her isn't a valid solution, it would make me feel bad and it would seem like something wrong, while I think that solo masturbation is just time that someone takes to take care of themselves. Idk how to solve this since it's also difficult talking with her, ESPECIALLY about this topics, I usually just get called a perv or something similar, when it's absolutely not true that I only think about that since I have a lot going on in my life.

Sorry for the long explanation, I will be thankful for every answer and suggestion. Thank you all very much <3