I'm 18f if that helps. I debated making this post for a long time but at this point it's getting so bad I don't know what to do.

First of all, I have a hormonal disorder which my doctor says directly affects things such as sexual arousal. To keep it simple, my body basically doesn't know how to fully process hormones, so when I'm feeling happy I'm REALLY happy. When I'm feeling sad I'm REALLY sad. I was always too afraid to tell her about my hornyness, but one day she brought up this and also said If I do get horny It's almost like a drug. I could, and do, get so aroused that my body wants more and more of it, and if I don't end my arousal via an orgasm, or sometimes multiple, I get extremely sad & depressed, almost like a drug withdrawl. I still never told my doctor that I actually have experienced this, she just brought it up as something that could happen, even though it has many many times. My hormonal disorder also makes me consume a lot of alcohol, which is not good because sometimes when I'm drunk that hornyness doesn't go away, it just makes it harder to get rid of it. By the way, I'm legally allowed to drink because I do it in my parents house. Someone once mentioned for me to try THC to get my hornyness down, but that only made it worse. Ever since around the time I first started puberty until only around 8 months ago, I really didn't get horny at all. I was born in a really conservative / religious household, and especially because of my trauma I'll mention in the next block of text, I wasn't allowed to masturbate and it was seen as the devil trying to take control of you by giving you an incentive to let him do it (that being how good it feels). My parents always told me that I could "do whatever I want" regarding masturbation when I turned 18, but I was always very compliant with them about masturbation so I don't think they ever thought I'd actually do it. When I actually did turn 18 I really tried to not masturbate because I was still under the impression that the devil was involved, but I touched myself a tiny tiny bit and it felt really good. I'm saying this because I wonder if all the years of me not masturbating has kind of built up through the years to the point where I can't get enough of it?

I don't exactly know the limits of what I'm able to talk about here regarding childhood trauma, but basically, something happened when I had just started puberty that left me with a lot of trauma. I started puberty at an age that is earlier than normal because of my hormonal disorder. People have told me that this experience might contribute to my hornyness, but is there any like actual scientific studies to back this up?

You're probably thinking that this whole thing is really good, like "wow, you get to be horny all the time? I bet you make yourself feel soooo good all the time!!!" but that's not really the whole picture. I mean, yeah, I guess it's cool, but it's really starting to get uncontrollable. When I was first starting to masturbate, around 8 months ago, this was a really cool thing because I could finally relax and let myself go. But now it's a lot more than that. Everywhere I go in public, if I see a hot person, I instantly get aroused. If I'm in the shower and look down at my OWN boobs, I get aroused (I'm a cis lesbian by the way). Heck, even if I see something that remotely looks like a sex toy, I get aroused. And arousal to me, because of my hormonal disorder, is basically my body telling me "YOU NEED TO MASTURBATE RIGHT NOW!!!!". At times it can get really scary, because if I happen to be aroused and a creep starts talking to me, It's kinda hard for me to shoo them off, you know? Like, I'm so aroused that I'm in my little own world, it feels almost intoxicating. I act different towards people when I'm like that, and it's scary.

Anyways, there's more I wanted to say, but this post is getting rlly long and I'm sure you guys get the picture now. Any help is much appreciated. I would also prefer other women to respond rather than men because obviously between men and women the way our bodies work and the way we get horny is different, so I'd like ppl that can relate to me better. Thank you!