Let me start this of by saying that I (22M and German) never had a girlfriend, I don't really have friends and I spend most my time playing games, watching stuff and from time to time I go to the GYM and draw.

A few weeks ago I realized how much being called a good boy and being overwhelmed and basically just being praised makes me go crazy, especially when it comes from women. It all started when I saw memes online about it, like ironical jests at the idea of wanting to be called that and wanting to be pat and stuff. I didn't pay much attention to it, however the more I thought about it, the more I realized how good that sounds.

Having a girl pat me? Call me a good, special boy? Giving me kisses and cuddling me? Even just writing this makes me breath harder and shake. I didn't know what to do with these feelings and so I looked up one of these "Good boy" ASMRs on Youtube. I felt kinda weird about it but just kinda had to do it. And it drove me insane. Genuinely.

I think it was 20 minutes long by the 10 minute mark I was tearing up, twitching and moaning. Every time the actress said the words "Good boy" my whole body started to twitch like crazy, especially my leg which started to wag back and forth extremely quickly. I drooled all over my pillow, the concept of time left my consciousness, tears ran down my face and I even came a little without touching myself. I was so unbelievably vulnerable, if the video told me to roll on the floor and bark I would of done it.

Once the video was over and I slowly drifted back to my sense I had a huge awkward wave of feelings hitting me. I was still shaking and completely overwhelmed. The thoughts of wanting to make a girl happy and be praised didn't leave my head.

Even now I listen to those videos from time to time and fantasize about this actually happening to me. It doesn't help that I have a very slim and sensitive body.

I don't know if this is healthy but I would do anything to experience this in real life, I want to be completely overwhelmed and be called a good boy until I am on the verge of tears.