After a high-stress and hurtful night, and after a day of deliberation, I wrote up what I would say in my notes app to break up with my partners. However, it's been 3 hours since all of us have been home, but I can't bring myself to start. I don't know if it's the fear of how they will respond, what will happen after the fact, a combination of both, or possibly other reasons.

What's extra hard is we just got accepted for an apartment (no lease signed yet), and with no car for my one partner to commute to work, I know this will royally screw them over. I feel stuck and don't know how to do this. I've just been scrolling on my phone, and it's the only thing that feels safe right now. I'd really appreciate any advice or spare words.