Hey there, this is my first post here and probably my only post. I feel like I have no one else to talk to about my struggle with gambling addiction so I’d figure I’d share. It’s pretty much gotten to the point where I’d rather kill myself than to live the way I do everyday and how gambling has ruined my life. Here’s a little story on how it’s gotten so problematic. Growing up I’ve always been a sports addict, I was an active kid who played just about every major sport growing up throughout my school years. So I’ve always had a thing with sports. When I turned 22 they legalized online sports gambling in my state. I’m 24 now and in the past 2 years it has completely ruined me. I first started off with wagering no more than $20, okay maybe $50 at MOST if I was feeling really confident. Well, I saw great success with the bets I was placing and I had a certain strategy that would make me a lot of money with of course a bit of luck to come my way but for someone who’s always had dead end boring jobs and made no more than $20 an hour my entire life I came across more money gambling than I ever had. In my first year I won about $55k on NFL/NBA/MLB wagering. Year two just around $40k. So I’ve made close to $100k in two years gambling, and only lost about 30k. So a $65k-70k net profit. Not bad right? I bought a car I always wanted, a new gaming setup, clothes, shoes, went on nice little trips and even quit my gig as a Amazon driver. I wanted to make gambling my full time profession. I had the knowledge on everything in the gambling world. I had everything planned out the way I wanted to, so I thought. The decline began when I went on a cold streak. I would win at least a straight bet everyday but during this cold streak it lasted about 2 weeks. For every loss, I would double down on my next wager. Remember when I said I would wager $50 at most? Well now my average wager was $500, 1k, even 2k at times. I got in such a big hole I dug myself into that I lost everything. I lost $70k in 6 months. I lost my car, my job, my home, my girlfriend, and most importantly myself. I have less than $100 to my name at the moment. And I just can’t believe I threw everything away so fast. Greed got me. The feeling of losing was something I couldn’t bare deal with and now it ruined me forever. I wish I was smarter and didn’t fuck up my bankroll. I have nothing now, I’m homeless. I had everything just a few months ago. Now I wake up everyday with no purpose whatsoever and I honestly think ending my life would be easier then to continue to deal with this feeling of loss I will never be able to recover from. Fuck gambling, I wish I never got myself into this mess.