I’ve been privileged to be admitted to several MSTPs and MD programs but even starting the shit I said I would start in my secondary app is becoming a damn nightmare.

• major volunteer event that fell through bc the person planning it couldn’t secure the funding AND had a manic episode (don’t worry, they’re fine thankfully but that was emotionally draining for me)

• I was going to volunteer with one organization but they straight up ghosted me and won’t return my emails let alone notify me when they have meetings.

• I’ve been trying to get more clinical experience (ironic bc I was admitted without this one experience) in an ER. The volunteer office is a H O T mess. Literally a mess and after today I’m just mentally drained from their bs. Plus the physician I’d be volunteering under hasn’t even been reaching out. She didn’t even acknowledge my text saying I was admitted to my first MSTP. Plus now with omicron raging I feel like I could bring it home to my parents.

I’ve tried but I’m tired of this bs. Is it alright if I just give up and focus on my publication experiments, the study I’ve been working on, and the volunteer opportunity I’ve had for years (thankfully they’ve got their shit together)? I’m so tired of this crap.

Edit: thanks for the reassurance. These things were only mentioned in my secondary application or an update letter when I thought these things would happen.