So started two weeks ago, and since I started I've had two relapsed. The first time obviously felt great and got rid of all the starting side effects, but the second time I just felt horrible and empty. I don't know what to do with all of this. I started this journey because I wanted to get rid of my vices and become a better person for myself and those around me, but I feel like I'm not strong enough.

I cannot, and I'm not even exaggerating how bad this is, even begin to explain how difficult this is for me. I legit feel like I'm losing touch with reality. I started with all the obviously side effects like insomnia, anhedonia, you know the usual. But now, I don't even feel human anymore. I'm so dissociated and upset all I want to do is curl up into a ball and cry.