I don't really have much else. That's just how I feel: trapped... I want something real not, some mental fantasy and i hate that i seem to have relapsed so many times that, it's hard for me to get back up like, my efforts are never enough. I just relapsed again, just now and it's got me feeling pretty shitty... I want my peace back, my energy, my motivation, my joy like, a full sense of joy not just a little euphoria here and there even though I'm thankful for that little bit of Euphoria because, it reminds me that some day, sooner rather than later, I'll defeat this thing once and for all.

I'm tired of the self abuse of pornography because, at the end of the day... It is self abuse, no matter how you look at it.

Never thought I'd miss my blissful and innocent teens years, this much😂😂